(Un)motivation.
Being a Sophomore at a semi-major university, I’ve met a vast variety of people. Most of these people have set priorities for themselves, and are striving toward them, whether it be the best gamer in town, or Valedictorian. Stand-up comedian, or the next lead anchorwoman for MSNBC. Future actor or technical director. Seeing these people, or thinking about people who are always on top of what they’re doing makes me feel a plethora of emotions. Jealous, scared, sad, SUPER motivated, then completely unmotivated. A smorgasbord of negativity, if you will.
I know what I want in life…and I’ve even given myself a few options I would be happy with. Stage/screen actor, voice actor, talent agent, casting director, Theatre professor, video editor…anything that has to do with entertainment and me, basically (a comfortable-or-more salary would be a nice bonus to that). What I lack is that drive to do anything and for that, I will always be average. I know I can do these things, but I just lack that kick in the pants that everyone seems to have.
I barely have the drive to type out a ranting blog about my lack of motivation. I only continue pressing these keys in hopes that someone like me may read this and know that they are not alone.
So what do I do now? Well, what I’ve been doing for most of my life: stride on by, wait for an opportunity to come to me rather than for me to make one happen, grasp it, let it go, and wander around a bit more until the next one comes by.
